Friends with benefits

Wow, I know I sound like an echo, but it is so nice to find that I am not alone. I have been with my fiance for four years and we are enaeggd to be married next June. He is a great guy when he wants to be, but uses the silent treatment as a first resort whenever he is displeased with something. I really liked the author’s blog aout overwatering and underwatering and yes, I am a total people pleaser. I just want everyone to be happy 24/7. I also take care of myself, but sometimes feel like I need to live two lives becasue when I come home he won’t talk to me. Thank God I have a dog! I grew up with a big family so to be in a house with only one other person who gives you the silent treatment for sometimes weeks at a time can be almost unbearable. I know I am not perfect, but I can honestly say that I always try with my whole heart and am always willing to try harder, first to apologize, oh wait that is why I’m in this mess, huh?! Seems rather unfair. At times the silent treatment can be almost soul crushing. And the times in between are bittersweet because I am afraid to say the wrong thing and have it start all over again. Not nice. And everyone keeps talking about how great it is that we are enaeggd, etc. Sometimes I think we live a fairytale. Other times I think we live a lie. My thoughts and prayers are with everyone here.Be strong and be good to yourselves.Much love.